Heartbeat

Thud. Thud. Thud. Thud.   The beating of your heart, is how I know you’re safe. It keeps the dream alive, that one day we’ll be three. Watching you on the scans, seeing your body grow. I start to see a future, that one day we’ll be three.   Feeling your many kicks, throughout the…

A Silent Birth

Contractions. The start of the miracle of birth. Signalling the time to meet your child after nine months of you waiting and them growing is here. Thursday 22nd March 2018, this is when Sophie’s contractions started. Cue excitement and mad panic that there are some of Henry’s things not set up for when he comes…

Not Just Another Statistic

June is SANDS awareness month, they are trying to help break the silence around stillbirth and neonatal death by encouraging everyone to sensitively start a conversation with someone whose baby has died, however long ago. Find out more information on the SANDS website #FindingTheWords The world we live in now is full of statistics and…

The Day The World Changed Forever Part 1

This is the hardest thing I have ever written, although this happened almost 12 weeks ago it still feels like it is happening now. I apologise for any spelling mistakes or grammatical errors in advance, this was too hard to read back and check. The words flooded out in most parts and I’m not sure…

Before the Fall

The best and worst week of my life. As a child growing up when everyone else dreamed of being actors, astronauts and doctors, all I ever dreamed of was being a father. I always believed rightly or wrongly that I would be the greatest father as I would put my all into being the best…